Thursday, December 29, 2011

apa yg tersirat...

bnyk bnda yg bwad aq jatuh skrng....
haih.... aq pn x tau lah...
kenapa....
kenapa semua nie brlaku kat aq???
bnyk benda yg trsimpan dan trpendam yg aq rase....
aq bukan x nk luah kn....
tapi aq sendiri x tahu apa aq rase....
sedih, sakit n hancur hati aq....
setelah sekian lama aq menderita....
aq masih x dpt jawapan nye...
kenape???
kenapa harus jadi begini???
mungkin kah ada sesuatu yg trsirat pada apa yg brlaku...
cinta aku pada dia bukan hanya gembira...
tapi juga ada duka....
juga ada sengsara...
aq pernah menitis kn air mata kerna nye....
dea jugak begitu...
aq pernah rase ingin membunuh diri...
mungkin dea jugak begitu....
aq pernah rase seperti mati hidup semula....
mungkin dea jugak begitu....

cinta aku dan dia penuh dengan tawa dan air mata.....
aku hanya mencintai nye seorng....
dan tiada yg laen....
aku harap akan terus bersama nye sehingga ke akhir waktu....
sebelum aku mati....
aku harap aku dapat rase semua ini....

walaupn mata aku tertutup selamanye....
aku tetap akan bersama nye....
aku tetap akan menunggu nye....
walau seribu tahun....

ketika aku hampir menghembus nafas trakhir...
dia lah orng nye yg aku ingin disamping ku....
dan aku ingin kan dia yg menutup mata ku dan memeluk ku bwad akhir kali....

sebelum aku memasuki tmpt tidur ku yg kekal(kubur)`.....
aku berharap dia akan membaca doa untuk ku....
dan selepas dia menjejak kan kaki meninggal kn aku...
aku harap dia akan melupakan ku....
dan cari yg laen yg lebih baik dari diri ku ini....

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

holidays....

maybe this is the last holidays for me before i have SPM....
the most scary thing for all the children in Malaysia....
hahaha.... but to me it is a normal test...
every one have to face it on day right???
hahaha.... me n my uncle always said....
'' SPM jew kot""
hahaha....
holiday kali nie best giler2....
wahahaha....
family aq dari Kajang ke Pahang,
dari Pahang ke Cameron Highland,
dari Cameron Highland ke Taiping,
dari Taiping ke Kedah,
dari Kedah ke Padang Besar...
wahhhh...
jauh kitorng berjalan pergi ke sana....
balik pn ikut urutan yg sama tapi trbalik kan....
hahaha....
mcm2 jadi masa holiday kali nie....
suka duka prjalanan...
gurau gaduh...
semua ada...
tapi dlm semua tu.....
ada membahagiakn dan menyedihkan aq pada waktu yg sama....
haih....
aq sangat merindui nye...
aq slalu bwad dosa pada nye....
tapi aq tetap mencintai nye....
mungkin sudah sedikit pudar pada hati nye...
tapi hati ku tetap segar mencintai dan merindui....
walau bertahun aq perlu menunggu....
aq sentiase akan menunggu....
biar aq trpaksa meredah lautan api,
biar aq trpaksa lemas di lautan biru,
biar aq trpaksa membelah gunung....
aq tetap mencintai nye.....


walau aq mati di hanyut ombak,
walau aq mati di bakar api,
walau aq mati di timpa gunung,
cinta aq hanya untuk mu....

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

love change M.Amiruddin

this story is for boys.... but if girls want to read...
it just fine.... and girls will know what boy like me have sacrifice for one love....

when u first time u look at this cute, pretty or beautiful girl somewhere....
your heart gonna feel like F1 cars....
your mind feel like gonna blow...
your face cant stop smile for the whole day.....
and at night u gonna dream about that girl....

i have feel it many times....
but i was different now....
u know what different???
last time i only feel like that before i date the girl that i like....
now....
even i have been with my girl for almost 1 year...
i still dream about her every night...
i still thinking about her every day....
i still smile about her every minutes....
n my heart still feel like F1 cars everytime i saw her face....

2008 Taiping: first time i been at strange place....
i dont know what to do...
i dont know anyone at there...
feel like just wanna sit at home n hide under the bed....
first day at school is suck....
i try to know people...
but people there is so strange....
second day at school i have a fight....
that is the first time i fight...
first time punch people with on hand...
after that day....
people there start making friends with me....
everyone look at me every time i walk in or out from class...
blend with some hot CHICKS...
friend with so cool guys....
after that i know a girl....
a girl that very beautiful...
it is easy to tackle her....
cuz i'm like the coolest guy at school....
she try to change me....
but....
for what i wanna change for her???
she gonna just accept me...
right???
2009 still Taiping:
now my life is full of bad n sins.....
i become one of the most bad gengster in town....
i smoke so badly....
play this girl, play that girl...
that time i never think about sins...
just know how to enjoy.....
spent money...
steal money....
that is my life....
i couple with one hot CHICK....
she try to change me too....
but....
there ain't stupid thing like love can change me that time....
haih...

2010 Back to Kajang:
this the place that i have grow up....
learnt my chinese at this town....
first when i reach here...
i feel like....
''WTH''
here is no hot CHICK like Taiping...
hahahaha.....
live in my small house....
haih....
i really fucking miss Taiping....
but i have my old friend here....
quite fun here when u know people here....
start to built new style....
start to know few girls....
yah...
n i end up with this stupid girls....
after i waited for 8 months...
this stupid girl cant event change me...
she just cant stop talking about herself....
but she dont know that i dont event care....

2011(now) Kajang:
this is year i have change a lot.....
because of one girl....
one girl that i LOVE the most....
she teach me how to be patient....
she ask me to be good guy....
she want me to be a nice leader....
i never think about the wild life i have ever try...
i never want to do the bad thing that i have does before...
because of her...
i have change a lot....
thank you my dear....
she is the only one that have change me for 4 years....
sometime it just need a girl to change the whole world....
but sometime a girl also can be destroy the whole world....
so take a risk if u think it is worth to change for someone u love.....
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR....


moral of the story....
dont stop walking until u can find a girl that can change u....
sometime when u stay....
u just gonna feel suck.....

Monday, December 19, 2011

harap doa akan termakbul

harap doa ku akan trmakbul....
doa agar aku dapat mencintai nye selama-lamanya...
doa agar tiada penghalang dalam percintaan ini....
doa agar kami sentiase bahagia....

aku telah bersamanye hampir setahun....
bnyk yg telah kami lalui...
bnyk yg telah kami tempuhi...
cinta bukan sekadar gembira....
cinta ada derita....
cinta ada sengketa....
cinta ada sengsara....

cinta yg telah membuat aku menjadi kuat...
cinta yg telah membuat aku menjadi lemah...
cinta yg telah membuat aku tersenyum...
cinta jugak lah yg telah membuat aku menangis....

tapi aku tetap menyayanginye.....
walaupn ada curiga yg pernah trlintas dihati....
walaupn ada yg lain pernah menanti....
hati ku tetap setia kepada nye....
kepada DIA yg ku cintai....

cinta telah menemukan kami berdua....
dan aku harap hanya maut yg akan memisahkan kami....
insyaAllah....
satu2 nye wanita yg sanggup menahan perangai dan ragam ku....
aku berubah kerana DIA....
DIA yg bernama: Syazana
DIA yg berumur: 15(2011)
DIA yg bersekolah di: SMJK Yu Hua
DIA yg sangat Comel, Cantik, Baik, Pandai dan Segala2nye bagiku.....

BB.....
B janji B akan jaga BB sebaik mungkin.....
B sayang BB sngat2....
BB sayang B x???
muah....
miss you so much syg....

Friday, December 16, 2011

some time it is hard to forget the past....
cuz the past that have me grow stronger.....
some time it is hard to remember the past...
cuz the past give me pain....
some time it is hard to remember or forget the past....
cuz now... i am who i am.....

i dont want to feel sad anymore....
i dont want to feel pain aymore....
enough is enough....
maybe people didt feel what i feel....
maybe people didt see what i see....
cuz not all the people have been there for me when i need....
cuz not all the people have been there for me when i want....
i know....
i know not all the people that i want will be there for me....
cuz....
i not as good as u think i am......
now....
what makes me stronger is this family....
this cute little family of mine in school....
there have been there many time for me....
i hope i have been there for them too....
                                           this is my sister that i love the most <3
                                           she always know what i feel....
                                           she knows many of my secret...
                                            i hope i have been there for u my little sister....

                              know all of them is the most happiest thing in my life....
                              we sad, happy n moody together...
                              there are my life now....

                                        this is my two brothers that didt scare to die...
                                        we have been protecting each other for a year....
                                              
                                       my crazy two little brother....
                                      always fight n joke with each other....
                                      one day, one of them gonna be leader... n i sure...


                                my brother n sister that i never gonna forget....
                                there are the best.....
                              the good guys in my family....
                              they are nice, gentle, funny n friendly...
                          lastly my big family......
                          have big reason for me to remember everyone of them...
                          maybe i dont have so muct time left....
                          but i will appreciate all the minutes that i have....


who want to take the person that i love....
have to go through me.....
if u cant go through me......
then "adiĆ³s MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!"

Friday, December 9, 2011

man tears...

yah.... man also have tears.... man also will drop the tears.....
no matter how strong the man is....
no matter how big the man is....
man also gonna drop their tears for someone that they really care about....
i drop my tears....
i drop my tears many time....
i drop it for her....
for the person that i love more than myself.....
almost every night since last month that i have cried....
maybe u and friends see me happy....
maybe u and friends see me smile....
but....
i dont know why....
i miss u so much....
it is hard for me to sleep every night....
every time i try to sleep....
my tears will drop....
n that make me cant sleep....

i just want you...
i just want you SYAZANA.....
more than i can say....
more than i can wish....
more that i ever needed u....
i want u to always by my side.....
n i know u will....

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

mungkin aq pernah disakiti....
mungkin aq pernah menyakiti....
tapi itu semua sejarah yg pernah dilalui semua orng.....
mungkin apa yg aq rase dan ape yg aq fikir berbeza dari yg laen....
tapi.....
sakit tetap sama bgi semua.....
manusia x kn pernah puas dngan apa yg mereka ada....
sama jugak seperti aq.....
aq juga manusia yg x pernah berasa puas....
tapi kenapa???
TUHAN cipta manusia untuk brfikir dan merasa....
sbb itu manusia sntiasa fikir dan merasa apa yg ada didalam tangan tidak mencukupi....

x semesty nye kamu seorng pemimpin....
kamu akan berjaya....
x semesty nye kamu seorng pencinta....
kamu akan bahagia....
x semesty nye kamu seorng yg baik....
kamu akanhidup tenang.....

cuba cari cinta sejati....
jangan menunggu cinta yg x pasti.....
cuba cari harta kekayaan.....
jangan mengejar apa2 khayalan....

sebagai manusia aq pernah brasa sakit.....
aq pernah brasa pedih....
aq pernah brasa sedih.....
aq pernah berasa DITIKAM dari belakang...
aq pernah brasa dirobek terus ke hati.....
hanya Tuhan yg mengetahui apa yg ku rase....

setiap manusia ada lawan nye trsendiri.....
ada yg brmusuh dngan diri sendiri....
ada yg brmusuh dngan keluarga sendiri....
ada yg brmusuh dngan sahabat sendiri....
ada yg brmusuh dngan sesuatu yg x pasti.....

biar aq mati di tangan musuh ku.....
dari aq trseksa di tangan sahabat ku......